Your Ghost Will Ask My Ghost September 15, 2009
It’s dark, so run
you dream of nothing but yourself
a tainted rap sheet haunts you forever
But it’s dark, so run
you’ve broken the glass
and now you’re the pure diamond
late night head trips no one would understand
the way sleep soothes your head
It’s dark, now run
despair on the street sends you rocketing to your moon
problems are just the breath
and we’re not breathing well
But it’s dark, so run
because the grass is always greener
and you’re fueled by love
the devil just hates you
It’s dark, just run
you’re on your infinite life
and you’re just that sly
you’ve got bandages and brand new eyes
you leave everything just where it died
When it’s dark, you’ll run
you flee
everything you hate is waiting for you
your smile is shattered and your heartbeat slow
reality is cruel as we all know
It’s dark, so run
bohemea:
Lana Del Rey
Whiny Bria is whiny today. I didn’t sleep at all, really, because Andrew didn’t call me last night and i didn’t eat yesterday. I stayed up all night. I think i finally dozed off after 6 but was tossing and turning and then Andrew called me just before 9 and i don’t even remember my phone ringing or me answering. I remember putting the phone to my face and grunting. Then he said “I’m sorry. I meant to call my boss. I love you, baby. I gotta go to work” and then i was really awake after that cause every time he calls me ‘baby’, my heart explodes. My mom is at Linda’s. Don’t know why. Been there all day. I ate and started watching True Blood. (Only three episodes left of season two). And then my dad came home and then i got really bored and frustrated so i started doing my make up and then Andrew texted me “I wanna get married” so i called him and he told me he wants to get married and blahblahblah all this cute stuff and he didn’t go to work today but he did go and get some papers and information about how he can get FAFSA without his dad’s tax info so that’s really good. Then he went to the skate park, i presume. I spent most of our conversation on the phone listening to him be a boy. Sometimes, i forget that he’s a boy and then it’s kind of a rude awakening when i remember. And like. I think he’s still smoking. And i told him a few days ago that if he smoked, i’d be really upset with him. And i don’t want him to smoke but then there’s also this side of me that thinks the idea of it is sexy (I have no idea why. I NEVER felt like that until Andrew). And i sure as shit don’t want him smoking around me and like, i think he was smoking while we were on the phone but i didn’t want to say anything or ask cause i’m actually afraid. And another thing. Whenever he’s out somewhere and i hear a girl’s voice, i immediately think “Get away from my boyfriend”. Like, even though he’s not talking to them or anything. Hahahaha. I told him i was bored and that i need to study and he got VERY loud and yelly and was like “Fuck that! I will not let you be ruled by that shit” I was like “Baby, i have to get my GED by the end of the year”. He said “Yeah, but you do it on your own time! Wait until you’re happy and in that state of mind and then you can study. Don’t fucking force yourself to do that shit”. So yelly. I guess i understand what he means though. He’s right. I’m not at all in the mindset to do it right now. Ugh. I just want him to make like $100 tomorrow so that i know for sure he can come down this weekend cause i can’t wait to see him. And so yeah. Me and Jackie are going to watch Sunday’s The Killing in a minute. I seriously am involved in way too many shows at this point. Way too many. The Killing, Hannibal, Dexter, True Blood, Doctor Who, Orphan Black, New Girl, Big Bang Theory, 2 Broke Girls, Breaking Bad, Skins. I need a life.
my choice from the finale, requested by anonymous
jessuslacey:
so. angry.
suicideblonde:
Dita Von Teese photographed by Ruven Afanador
